Self Control Video (MV)

I don't wanna control myself
Just wanna take take take the things that make me feel good
I don't wanna take care of myself
Just wanna bang bang bang my head against the wall
I just need to distract myself from all the bullshit
Don't wanna rely on anybody else
So I've been turning to substances
I know it's not the best, but it's better than nothing at all
There's nothing better than wasting my time
But now I'm over all the waiting in line along with everybody else
I just wanna get away, away
I think that I'm done with this whole place
I don't really care about anything
Trying to fit in just got me feeling like shit
I don't understand how it happened like this
I don't really know what I'm here for
But I don't really care about it anymore
I'm kinda sick of trying now cuz nothing makes sense
I don't understand why I'm feeling like
Been tryna let it go, but I'm clenching my fists
Cuz ain't no way I'm going down without a fight
Keep bending till I grow, I ain't throwing no fits
Cuz don't nobody care what you're feeling like
I'm counting on myself, not on anybody else
I don't really know why, it's not like I don't need the help
It's starting to feel like this is just a waste of time
F*ck it 1, 2, 3, 4
I think that I'm done with this whole place
I don't really care about anything
Trying to fit in just got me feeling like shit
I don't understand how it happened like this
I don't really know what I'm here for
But I don't really care about it anymore
I'm kinda sick of trying now cuz nothing makes sense
I don't understand why I'm feeling like
I think that I'm done with this whole place
I don't really care about anything
Trying to fit in just got me feeling like shit
I don't understand how it happened like this
I don't really know what I'm here for
But I don't really care about it anymore
I'm kinda sick of trying now cuz nothing makes sense
I don't understand why I'm feeling like