Aegis, Pt. 1 Video (MV)

I have a fear and it keeps getting bigger
I have the gun but I don't have the trigger
I keep trying to climb but I just keep digging
I often see the end before I see the beginning
I am trying to fit this world into my system
I am 10,006 feet low in my position
I am trying to fit this world into my system

And oh, all my time is wasted on this hole
Ten miles wide, come get some more
All my time is wasted on this

I hear a sound and it keeps getting louder
I search for the source in winds and rain showers
I hear an echo that has so much power
If I find its cause I might not be devoured
I hear a voice as my situation worsens
I hope it's not in my head, I hope it comes from a person
I hear the call as I scour this burden
I try to shut it up but its f*cking determined

And oh, all my time is wasted on this hole
Ten miles wide, come get some more
Ten miles high up from the floor
All my time is wasted on this

And now I have my back to the ground
I wonder if my body will ever be found
Water drips out of the sky
Water drips out of my eyes

This cannot be happening
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die, I just don't wanna live anymore

Every morning when I wake up
I have to fight myself just to get up off the bed
This shit swirling in my head
Is heavier than lead
This shit choking up my heart
Is thicker than tar
But I have to put one foot in front of the other
I have to keep pushing if I want out from underneath
So let me see that willpower
Let me see you grit those teeth