Anonymou$ - Close to the Edge Lyrics

Yo I've been grinding ever since I was 18
Struggling and hustling on the daily
Independent like how my mother raised me
Since she passed man that really did change me
Cause the pain never seems to escape me
Dear God, I wonder can you save me?
From the crazy thoughts running through my head
Will anybody miss me when I'm dead?
If I one day I've had it up to here with life
And decide to have a couple beers at night
Till I'm drunk and my vision ain't the clearest sight
Jump behind the wheel trying to steer it right
As I flash passed every stop light
Not even worried about a cop light
Nah I'm a keep pushing full throttle
While I go ahead and down another bottle
Hoping I can I find a piece of mind I can borrow
To be more optimistic of tomorrow
But then I swurve and rub against the curb and
Crash into a parked Surburban

Life's do or dies that's why suicide
Often crosses my mind cause I'm lost in the mind
But what's expected when your mothers under six feet
Father ain't around man I wonder if he miss me
Or even care about my whereabouts
Got these thoughts in my head and I feel I should air them out
Cause that's what keeps my mind infested
The negativity's changing my perception
Of myself when I look at my reflection
All I see is a kid with no direction
Lost in a world of imperfections
But won't show it on a facial expression
Nah I'd rather front and act happy
Even with the shit life's throwing right at me
To trap me and lock me down
By attacking me to knock me down
I'm like a ticking bomb waiting just to blow up
I'm just hoping one day I don't show up
On the news and leave my family shook
By seeing me snap like Sandy Hook so