I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain,
The only thing that's real.
The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting.
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything.
What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know goes
Away in the end.
You could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear.
You are someone else,
I am still right here?
What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know goes
Away in the end.
You could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself,
I would find a way.