I Dont Want to Live I Dont Want to Die Video (MV)

Is this all in the divine plan?
Ma gave birth in a broken down van

I don't wanna live, I don't wanna die
I've been too afraid to take a step towards living my life
In between the fence, frozen in defense
Eternally preserved in crystalline like Miss Havisham

Oh, my brother
You'll soon be a man
Next to you, I'm just a boy
Trapped like Peter Pan

I don't wanna live, I don't wanna die
I keep a Colt 45 in my drawer if I change my mind
Unpredictable, syringe and spoonful
Eyes were blazing fire like a dragon from the underworld

Oh, my father
The beast has burned your land
Golden sheers to tend the flock
Cut off your right hand

I don't wanna live, I don't wanna die
I ruled over all the land, with a scepter in my mind
Power was my guest in absolute jest
Christopher Robin informed me rabbit was a common pest
Terror of the mind wiped me out in time
Death was as persistent as Frau Blucher in Young Frankenstein

Oh, my mother
I've got nothing left
Send for me to greet the king
And turn myself in