Last Note Video (MV)

This the last note
My last hope
Not a cry for help
But I'm trying to save those
Who can't save themselves
But like I said
I can't save myself
But lil' whoever
Got my spot
So I pray for help

But he don't answer
So what's new?
He wasn't helping me
In that trailer park
I live 5 seconds
From where my brother OD'd
And you wonder why my days are dark

I don't need a f*cking hug
I just need a f*cking slug
Lodged right between my eyes
But unfortunately
I care to much
So don't worry
I still got my music and my family
It may be small
But I think they understand me

Somebody lied to me
Told me if I work hard
And I'm good enough
Then I found out
That I'm not hood enough?
Me?
I need a G pass?
I was raised by dancers
In a crack house
Never backed down
Survived
In the background
And I still never forgot
The sound
Of the crash
Of our glass house
Cause I'm from that town
And you ain't never been
To that town

So you don't get it
But I forgive you
And I still hate that
If I rap about my wrist
And maybe get some face tats
Shit who knows?
Maybe you would f*cking play that

And mother just killed herself

Did I just use
Her pictures for promotion?
Maybe if I'm real
The truth serum is more potent
I don't want to know the truth
But I still feel this all this emotion
I used her voicemails
To make my songs
More important
But when she was alive
I ain't pick up
Now I'm sitting here
Thinking that I missed her
I f*cked up
I should've helped

And I want be left alone
But I'm still begging for attention
I'm conflicted
I love the world
I hate the world
So tell me what's missing
Am I different
Or indifferent

I don't know
I'm angry
And I can't let it go
But you have to love the person
Who deserves it the least
Because they're the one
Who needs it the most
And if I die tomorrow
This going to be realest thing
I ever wrote
My last note
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