AmonDeus - Doubts Lyrics

I beat myself to death
When I think of you
I do
I do
I hate myself for all I've done to you
I do, I do
I do, I do
I hate myself so much
I don't know what to do about it
It eats me up inside
My foolish pride
It rips away at me
Rips me up inside

These are the thoughts inside my head
They eat me up when I am laying down
These are all the doubts that I have had
All the moments that I wish I could do again
These are my deep regrets
All the demons in my head
The things that make me wish
Wish that I was dead
When I cry myself to sleep

Was I yours
Am I wrong
Did I ever quite belong
In your world
In your heart
Was it wrong right from the start
Were we not meant to be
Were you not the one for me
That's the case or so it seems
Did you ever even care
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

These are the thoughts inside my head
They eat me up when I am laying down
These are all the doubts that I have had
All the moments that I wish I could do again
These are my deep regrets
All the demons in my head
The things that make me wish
Wish that I was dead
When I cry myself to sleep

I can't keep from doubting
Questioning every feeling
Wondering if it was ever real
Wondering if you ever felt the same for me
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

I can't keep from thinking
That everything I said was wrong
Everything I did was just another sin
I could only do you wrong
So wrong

Should I have left
Should I have gone upon my way
Should I never have been a part of your life
I should have never came into your life

These are the thoughts inside my head
They eat me up when I am laying down
These are all the doubts that I have had
All the moments that I wish I could do again
These are my deep regrets
All the demons in my head
The things that make me wish
Wish that I was dead
When I throw the noose around my neck

I had never met you way back then
If I had never interfered with your perfect life
Then everything would have been fine
You were better off without me
Of that I have no doubt
No doubt