I'm not a rapper or anything , it's just sometimes I gotta lot of Shit to say
Chorus
Man the year just started over and it's 2k 1 9
Praying that I get all the demons out my mind
The ones that try to hold me back and hold up my grind
Can't even let my damn self throw me off one more time
Cause I'm my biggest critic and my enemy in one
And when all those decisions get ahead of me I run
Did myself so dirty when I sold myself short
Now I'm way more worthy of the real me, that's the real me I support
Verse 1
I just hate it when all the ppl treat i had my life made up for me,
Fine wine and fine cutlery, was never tough for me, never rough for me,
Luckily I have a great mom and great friends that really f*ck with me
Their loyalty and the promises is the only thing that really stuck with me
When my venecular too prissy So my own ppl would diss me
Constantly shittin on me like Imma personal privy
Swearing that you got this and that Shit so what you got it give me
Lights camera action when it was you that tried to dim me.
2nd verse
I had the best education that my shitty city could offer
Classes were smaller, psych is was broader
But I would ponder why barely saw any girls with my color
Straight brained washed into wishing that my hips could be smaller
Cause anything i came with there was ...never really fostered
Now everyone's lips and hips gettin done now.. for culture
And Maybe I wouldn't have felt such a way or even felt slightly ashamed
If a daddy just showed more love to his daughters
3rd verse
No I wasn't dodging all the hot Metal bullets ridin round in these streets
But momma was dodging bills just to make sure we could eat
Cause my daddy quit that job that brought the income every week,
And stole our trust funds out Just to blow on shit he didn't need
But I, never really cared about the bread dad, only you
You never really has to leave dad but your pride you couldn't move
And I Never changed my number so you stay hittin my line but i barely reply
So I cant afford to get my hopes up this time
Verse 4
And I lost my best friend in the old year like, "wow "
My mother helped name you, but yet we barely speaking now
Over foul shit, just admit that you were wrong,
Cause I could never hurt you how you hurt me all along
Don't wanna blame ya self sis, so you sit there and try blame me,
But those were your own faults sis how the hell you try to reframe me
I hope you see the bigger pic I hope that we can grow
When you ready to loyal hit my line just let me know
3rd verse
And all the ones that chattin me, just at me is all I ask
Cause I don't want no more fake love from the mofos out there wearing masks
Talkin shit but only talkin shit behind an LCD screen glass
I'm just tryna understand why you stay throwing hate on my path
When I'm just here to tell my story, In the best way that I can
I will never need your pity glory if that blade is still in your hand
Just to get me from behind when you think can
As if you hatin and you scared my shit really gone pan.
Chorus
Cause the year just started over and it's 2k 1 9
Praying that I get all the demons out my mind
Ones that try to hold me back and hold up that grind
Can't even let my damn self throw me off one more time
Cause I'm my biggest critic and my enemy in one
And when all those decisions get ahead of me I run
Did myself so dirty when I sold myself short
Now I'm way more worthy of the me that I support
This is all of me
And I cant belief