If I OD Video (MV)

Might escape to a place that's out of The norm
I feel better roaming the earth in Spirit form
Peace at last was all I was asking for
What you get the casket for
Smoke my ashes throw it across the Shore
Don't need to be here nomore
Death really ain't a fear nomore
What's the point of living if you Don't feel alive
Currently Existing, just trying to get By
Go to school get a job
Work a 9-5 until you die
Healthcare ain't free so If im broke They won't try
So to better mine I'm smoking til my Lungs dry
Stuck in the sky hoping never to Escape this high
Will god get mad at me for wanting To see him sooner
Crossfaded they thinking im a drug Abuser
Tryna quit the habit but it's tough
I might OD cause it's never enough

If I OD
Don't Save Me

Sometimes I wish my fam didn't care About me
So if I left, it wouldn't effect nobody
Rehab recieves a no from me like I'm Amy
Cause when I get out I'm back on That shit like crazy
Relapse bound to be tougher then Slim shadies
Self destructing like it's f*ck my Safety
I ain't been sober lately
Depressants keep me sane & kills the Pain
So it's never leaving like a heavy Stain
I'm just another grain
Out of the million slowly going Insane
But I ain't crazy til you say so
This ain't no play so I ain't playing Roles
I'm just another K.O.D like J cole
Tryna find a way bro
We need more black therapists
Cause they could only relate bro

Rich life seem so attracting
But I'll die before me & the devil Make an transaction

The death of me might be my Thinking
So I'm smoking weed & drinking
Tryna drown my demons
Swimming in my sorrow soon to be Sinking
As it deepens
So don't save me when I hit rock Bottom on the deep end

If I OD
Don't Save Me