Alyssa Joseph - leaning Lyrics

They say it's strange that I'm still leaning
That I need to change, stand on two feet and leave
But my momma says I'm alright

"So I guess I'm fine," I say as it echoes through my mind
All the shit I've done wrong
Like that one time I told Jess I couldn't hang
Cause I wanted to see that boy again

And I probably shouldn't be so selfish at night
But momma says I've gotta do things for myself sometimes

I work two jobs, and thank god I don't pay rent
Cause all my money goes to student loans and the goddamn government
Cause they said we'd be alright

So we just get drunk and make believe our lives don't suck
And laugh it all away
Am I wasting time? Thought I'd be in Nashville by now
It's a surprise, but I've got good things going on this side of town

So I'll stick around
And momma says things will work out sometime

Cause my innocence is gone
Adulthood sets in
My ambition is lost
And that feeds the fear within

Momma told me I was special
It turns out I'm just alright
I've been living with that pressure for my whole life

They told us we were special
Gave us participation awards
Building up the pressure
But what are we working towards?

Cause our innocence is gone
Adulthood has set in
We're all so f*cking lost
And I don't know where to begin

And they say it's strange
That I'm still leaning
But I'm still leaning