Alpha Riff - The Jester Lyrics

Do you remember when you were eight, the shit you used to say
How the world was so beautiful, cosmos had everything
Now you know the f*cking truth, the world's just abusive
Gone and beaten you the f*ck up and made you think you're Judas
Blame yourself for everything and how they abandoned you
Cause the hands never helped when you begged to
Don't believe when they tell you they f*cking love you
Cause when you're dead and gone and buried, nobody's gonna remember you

I don't say this shit to be a f*cking asshole
You know me better than that or I would at least hope so
We got the same agenda and the same f*ckin' goal
Me and you were once part of the same f*ckin' soul
Just cause we got differences don't mean we can't come to agreement
Never lied to you and never will and you know that I mean it
You've gotta see it the way I'm seeing it
People never truly care and never will, just feed they demons

Ask yourself, you were gone for how long?
Nobody even checked on you or put you in a song
Nobody put you in they mentions
And the only way you relevant is acting a fool for reacts, clicks
And the listens
You a jester, just a beggar, a mouthpiece for entertainment of your betters
Everyone calls you their friend, cause you help em all win
But when you fell they was dust in the wind

I know you wear those scars
The ones on your arms and across your heart
For all the good it would do
I'm sorry for what we put you through

A joke to everyone and you don't even realize
No one can tell you your favorite things in this world like
Favorite color, favorite sight, favorite smell
What you wanted to be when you were young
Versus what you wanted now
It's cause you don't mattered, never did
But managed to convince yourself somehow since a little kid
If you could shower the world in love
Piece by piece until your heart was gone
Then there'd be your peace
Pop the casket cause you flatlined
Gave it all away, till you're deceased
No longer desired
And when you had nothing left that you could give em
Not a heartbeat or the rhythm, was it even worth the livin'
Look at that, dead and gone
They'll write you in song
Mama'd be so damn proud, she sang along
They'll idol worship, maybe play tribute at their proms
Whisper your name as they hold sweaty palms

I know you wear those scars
The ones on your arms and across your heart
For all the good it would do
I'm sorry for what we put you through

Bottles and the pills, bottles and the pills
I got bottles and pills to make this pain seem real
Bottles and the pills, bottles and the pills
I got bottles and pills to make this pain seem real
Bottles and the pills, bottles and the pills
I got bottles and pills to make this pain seem real
Bottles and the pills, bottles and the pills
I got bottles and pills to make this pain seem real
Bottles and the pills, bottles and the pills
I got bottles and pills to make this pain seem real

And the thing is, I know tonight, you won't go to bed bitter in the absence of light
You'll lay yourself down and cry yourself to sleep and beg to be remembered
And beg that the love you gave away was given for others to keep
Cause your heart is too good for these people
And I'm sorry that I let this anger seep through
And I'm sorry that I never let them see you
You're special, I love, be peaceful