Up And Down Video (MV)

Yo I'm tryna think positive
Yeah I'm here but I don't even know how to live
Figured that I'd be dead from a hollow tip
Guess I never got caught in gang politics
Still I wonder how I made it
Always in my head
I still hate it when those cars start getting near
I struggle trying stay calm
Always way prepared
It's more than just a f*cking song
I feel it in the air
Can all be gone quickly
Don't know how to fix me
Probably need therapy
But all of that is iffy
I can only trust myself
Don't nobody get me
I can't help but think they only want a dollar from me
Guess that's why I'm always empty
Like those bottles of the henny
When somebody's down and been deep
In sorrows trying get free
And can't promise they'll see relief
Trying knock it out the park
But had dropped the ball in Wrigley
And never found a spark
Cause they change it up and wit ease
Gather up my thoughts
Just to process
All that I've been through within context
Postponing my progress
Moving on from the nonsense
What would I do if I can't?
The only jewels of knowledge how to keep your cool
In the heat, when someone make a move
Barely have to think
It's been instinctive since I left the womb
That's how it's gotta be and I don't make the rules
I struggle finding meaning if I don't play it too


I must remember there's ups
And Up and down
Everybody has ups
And up and down
Don't worry it goes up
And up and down
You gonna make it it goes up
And up and down


In my town, it'll tear you from the ground up
Leave you with a frown until the end and now your time's up
I never thought I'd ever get a chance to get around from
All the stuff that's bad the problem is it's right behind ya
Waiting to find ya
Slipping when you least expect it
Buried underneath it never left you chose to just neglect it
Keep emotions within check
That's what I perfected
And now the older that I get I try to find direction
My recollections of my past is too impressive
Plastered every last word that can answer the stressing
Good or bad from each perspective
Left some shit that need corrected it's whack
Being grown but just a functional wreck
Rarely ever know what is next
But I don't have the time to feel alone or depressed
I need a check
Gotta pay these
Bills and can't let these jobs play me
While I try to heal before this trauma drive me crazy
Or karma try to slay me
I'm a product of the 90s
Lately
I'm finding all the reasons why I'm grimy
When I got a good one that's beside me
I've come a long way
So why I'm never happy
It's probably from the times we
Noticed what was happening
Like photos in my mind
Playing in slow mo like a zombie
Closed
Family members gang banging when we all meet
Cold
No wonder those emotions that's inside me
Gone