Alfons Berggren - What Am I Waiting For Lyrics

The bitter autumn winds brings back a past
That speaks of beats that I used to blast
On the streets where a movies chance fell down
And landed on my stranded ass in hell town
Now these visions of pain always echo the same
But this time around they brought with them the shame
That I might be in the circle once again
And that my delusions are what funds my sane
State of mind, did my time and I'm back for more
Ain't no rehab to fix my damaged core
I'm wired wrong, my silent song comes out jumbled
The weekly supertask that leaves me crumbled
Pieces of a man, shit I pick it up like Reggie
Trynna stay slow and steady
Either I snap on a beat, a homie or I bleed
I'm still in it tho but my legs are weak

I can't keep on standin' (standin', standin')
When everything I'm plannin' (plannin', plannin)
Keeps on fallin' (fallin', fallin')
What am I waitin' for why am I stallin'
I can't keep on standin' (standin', standin')
When everything I'm plannin' (plannin', plannin)
Keeps on fallin' (fallin', fallin')
What am I waitin' for why am I stallin'

Things are going good, why do I feel this way
I got hoes in my phone but it's back to the same
Train of thought I've had for my present memory
If you know you know this unpleasant jeopardy
The feelin' of fallin' and passin' every target
The ceilin' was callin' and askin' for some scarlet
Not this day but I fall prey to the red eyes
Cuz what's true when you learned you've been fed lies
All the happier moments just feels like betrayal
And you yearn for a time when things were the same
But they ain't never comin' back and I know that
Hate to hear it but it's a cold fact
So you bunker down and try to avoid any change
Cuz it never gets better so just settle for your range
That you know you can somewhat manage
But it crumbles again because of your baggage

I can't keep on standin' (standin', standin')
When everything I'm plannin' (plannin', plannin)
Keeps on fallin' (fallin', fallin')
What am I waitin' for why am I stallin'
I can't keep on standin' (standin', standin')
When everything I'm plannin' (plannin', plannin)
Keeps on fallin' (fallin', fallin')
What am I waitin' for why am I stallin'

Wake up, crack a can, cross the line in the sand
It's man made anyway so who gives a damn
It ain't about preservation it's mitigation
It ain't self harm it's mental aviation
Can't see myself when I look in the mirror
Can't plan for this it just gets you nearer
To the edge cuz you put it on yourself
As a personal failin' instead of bad health
And everything's connected in circuits
For example I don't feel valued in my circles
Since I ain't the best why would they opt for less
It ain't true, but it causes stress
Anxiety and all kinds of chest unrests
All and all everyday's just another test
So just keep on glowin'' even if feels like it's slowin'
Time doesn't stop it just keeps on goin'

I can't keep on standin' (standin', standin')
When everything I'm plannin' (plannin', plannin)
Keeps on fallin' (fallin', fallin')
What am I waitin' for why am I stallin'
I can't keep on standin' (standin', standin')
When everything I'm plannin' (plannin', plannin)
Keeps on fallin' (fallin', fallin')
What am I waitin' for why am I stallin'
I can't keep on standin' (standin', standin')
When everything I'm plannin' (plannin', plannin)
Keeps on fallin' (fallin', fallin')
What am I waitin' for why am I stallin'
I can't keep on standin' (standin', standin')
When everything I'm plannin' (plannin', plannin)
Keeps on fallin' (fallin', fallin')
What am I waitin' for why am I stallin'