Alex Blue - Reflection P.2 Lyrics

I spent my life looking for something I ain't have
But even with all the money in the world I'd still be sad
And I don't wanna talk about the reasons why I'm angry
It's just the that deep inside feel like I'm broken up so badly

And it's like lately I've been feeling so abandoned
I didn't check my destination I just ran
And lately I just haven't been taking care of myself
How am I supposed to learn to care for someone else

Sunshine
Sunshine
Hate it when I gotta rise
Cold water from the sink
Color red inside my eyes

Hate it when I gotta hide
Please don't ask me for a ride
I hate wasting all my time
Working at a stupid 9 to 5

I just be staying up all night
She say I'm gonna be alright
And as I fall she holds me so tight
Hold me like this for my whole life

I just wanna be high forever
So we can both fly together
Maybe my life would be better
If I didn't worry so much bout the weather

Feel like I'm trapped in a cage
It's driving me so insane
So I just stay high to maintain
Only way I numb the pain
Im not gonna blow up my brain
But
Sometimes when I carry all of the weight it gets heavy
And
After a while my legs start to turn to spaghetti

See I feel like I'm wasting my time
Searching for something that I might not find
And so many people agree
That it's getting harder to see

I look at myself, is this who I am?
I tug on my hair with my scissors on hand
And suddenly I cannot breath
Think it's my anxiety

My parents say that they're proud of me
No ones as loud as me
I'm the highest in the room
But
I got so much shit on my mind
And I'm always down
So I call myself blue

I think that I'm going loco uh
I get nervous when im diving past the popo uh
Got some sticky like a moco uh
And we pass it back n forth just like a yoyo uh'

So I'm screaming at the world what do you want from me?
You have broken every single f*ckin part of me
And I just wanna die

And I feel like my whole life is one big tragedy
But if I left I know that it would crush my family
It makes me wanna cry
You're the reason why I fight

I spent my life looking for something I ain't have
But even with all the money in the world I'd still be sad
And I don't wanna talk about the reasons why I'm angry
It's just the that deep inside feel like I'm broken up so badly

And it's like lately I've been feeling so abandoned
I didn't check my destination I just ran
And lately I just haven't been taking care of myself
How am I supposed to learn to care for someone else