I got all these dark thoughts deep inside my head
Sorry mom and dad I did my best to be all them
These thoughts they don't come too often
But when they do they come in fast
I need a minute away from myself just to feel like myself
I need a minute away from my brain telling me I need help
I need a minute away from my friends telling me I'll do well
I need a minute away someone keeps ringing the bell
Yes I confess I'm screaming for help
But I'm scared of feelings peeling their shell
So I stand knee deep in the well of my sin and shame
Tried many programs even praising the name
When did I grow up and relate
To all of the sad songs played these days
When did I eat the apple, realize I do not have clean slate
When did I start taking me days
Just to work on my mental health
I thought I was happy depression is for everyone else
Ok you're right I'm not depressed
But there's some things I have not addressed
God can I believe that this is just a test
I walked away
Thought I lost your grace
Always knew I'd die but not this way
Smiling across the range
From a very young age
I learned how to fake
My way out of blame
And now I wait
For your gaze
To vacate
The stage
Uh oh AK getting too real
Better put the pen away
Before u pull it
Bite the bullet
I got all these dark thoughts inside my head
Sorry mom and dad I did my best to be all them
These thoughts they don't come too often
Just every time I see the night sky
Tried to tell u, it was never the right time
Something in my brain
Tells me it's that time of day
Commit acts I hate
What makes u act that way
Since way before the sixth grade
I think it's kinda funny
Cause it starts as something lovely
Quick becoming ugly
Slowly numbing
Turns into your master dummy
Jesus said you can't have two of them
So why you scared of losing him
It's ok just use it quick
How long u been using it
Need that, dig the grave
React, send in shame
Relapse, dig the wait
Keep my mistakes hidden
All of my friends just visions
Only sin is visiting
If they're nailed to Jesus, tell me are they are they risen with
Screw it yes I'm risking it
All of a sudden now ur interested
Addicted to my downfall I should get a membership
Or maybe a therapist
But it's so easy when I bury this
At the worse moments it appears again
You don't even know what scary is
Well let me define it
It's stay awake crying
At something no words come to mind when
You try to describe it
Like watching yourself dying
But forced to stay silent
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English
I got all these dark thoughts deep inside my head
Sorry mom and dad I did my best to be all them
These thoughts they don't come too often
But when they do they come in fast
I need a minute away from myself just to feel like myself
I need a minute away from my brain telling me I need help
I need a minute away from my friends telling me I'll do well
I need a minute away someone keeps ringing the bell
Yes I confess I'm screaming for help
But I'm scared of feelings peeling their shell
So I stand knee deep in the well of my sin and shame
Tried many programs even praising the name
When did I grow up and relate
To all of the sad songs played these days
When did I eat the apple, realize I do not have clean slate
When did I start taking me days
Just to work on my mental health
I thought I was happy depression is for everyone else
Ok you're right I'm not depressed
But there's some things I have not addressed
God can I believe that this is just a test
I walked away
Thought I lost your grace
Always knew I'd die but not this way
Smiling across the range
From a very young age
I learned how to fake
My way out of blame
And now I wait
For your gaze
To vacate
The stage
Uh oh AK getting too real
Better put the pen away
Before u pull it
Bite the bullet
I got all these dark thoughts inside my head
Sorry mom and dad I did my best to be all them
These thoughts they don't come too often
Just every time I see the night sky
Tried to tell u, it was never the right time
Something in my brain
Tells me it's that time of day
Commit acts I hate
What makes u act that way
Since way before the sixth grade
I think it's kinda funny
Cause it starts as something lovely
Quick becoming ugly
Slowly numbing
Turns into your master dummy
Jesus said you can't have two of them
So why you scared of losing him
It's ok just use it quick
How long u been using it
Need that, dig the grave
React, send in shame
Relapse, dig the wait
Keep my mistakes hidden
All of my friends just visions
Only sin is visiting
If they're nailed to Jesus, tell me are they are they risen with
Screw it yes I'm risking it
All of a sudden now ur interested
Addicted to my downfall I should get a membership
Or maybe a therapist
But it's so easy when I bury this
At the worse moments it appears again
You don't even know what scary is
Well let me define it
It's stay awake crying
At something no words come to mind when
You try to describe it
Like watching yourself dying
But forced to stay silent
Sorry mom and dad I did my best to be all them
These thoughts they don't come too often
But when they do they come in fast
I need a minute away from myself just to feel like myself
I need a minute away from my brain telling me I need help
I need a minute away from my friends telling me I'll do well
I need a minute away someone keeps ringing the bell
Yes I confess I'm screaming for help
But I'm scared of feelings peeling their shell
So I stand knee deep in the well of my sin and shame
Tried many programs even praising the name
When did I grow up and relate
To all of the sad songs played these days
When did I eat the apple, realize I do not have clean slate
When did I start taking me days
Just to work on my mental health
I thought I was happy depression is for everyone else
Ok you're right I'm not depressed
But there's some things I have not addressed
God can I believe that this is just a test
I walked away
Thought I lost your grace
Always knew I'd die but not this way
Smiling across the range
From a very young age
I learned how to fake
My way out of blame
And now I wait
For your gaze
To vacate
The stage
Uh oh AK getting too real
Better put the pen away
Before u pull it
Bite the bullet
I got all these dark thoughts inside my head
Sorry mom and dad I did my best to be all them
These thoughts they don't come too often
Just every time I see the night sky
Tried to tell u, it was never the right time
Something in my brain
Tells me it's that time of day
Commit acts I hate
What makes u act that way
Since way before the sixth grade
I think it's kinda funny
Cause it starts as something lovely
Quick becoming ugly
Slowly numbing
Turns into your master dummy
Jesus said you can't have two of them
So why you scared of losing him
It's ok just use it quick
How long u been using it
Need that, dig the grave
React, send in shame
Relapse, dig the wait
Keep my mistakes hidden
All of my friends just visions
Only sin is visiting
If they're nailed to Jesus, tell me are they are they risen with
Screw it yes I'm risking it
All of a sudden now ur interested
Addicted to my downfall I should get a membership
Or maybe a therapist
But it's so easy when I bury this
At the worse moments it appears again
You don't even know what scary is
Well let me define it
It's stay awake crying
At something no words come to mind when
You try to describe it
Like watching yourself dying
But forced to stay silent
Writer: Elliott Houghton
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