Aidan Latham - The Ugly Fears Lyrics

Don't go
I'm talking to myself tonight
I'm talking to you
I'm talking to myself tonight
I'm talking to you
I'm talking to myself tonight
Because i can see you
I'm talking to myself tonight
Hoping that you'll poke through
Oh, i wanted you to know that i was thinking about some things
But i wondered if you knew about those things so i pulled it back
But i want to let you know that i'm coming right back
And there's nothing in this whole world that i would trade for a dime
Do i want something else
Am i just a silly little glutton
A silly little glutton
A silly little glutton
A silly little glutton, or

I'm so sick i crave to know every thought in your mind
Every unknown is a potential pain
Every uncontrollable factor is a terror in the dark
Lurking, waiting to strike when guards are off
Tell it to me like it is
I know you do
Tell it to me like it really is
I know you do
Tell it to me like it really is
Oh, i know you do
Tell it to me like it really is
I know you do
Let me in to all the nooks in your head
I know you want to
Do you feel the hooks digging in
I don't want to sting you
Do you feel the claws reaching in
I don't ever want to hurt you
I hurt myself when you're too good to hurt me
My instincts twist the worst perceptions of you
My instincts hold me in the cage of my protection
I am the prisoner and the guard
I am the prisoner and the guard
I am the prisoner and i'm the guard
And i'm the prisoner and i'm the guard
And despite this protection
I still end up scarred
Because people are people they are who they are

The boxes rip at your flesh
The corners cut into your blessings
I'll give you my heart if you come and take me away
My own spine screws into goodness
Nuclear explosions react to tenderness
Am i worth the thorns?
Will i be too much?
Is there a too honest?
How long will you stand this?
A million fears can get a million comforts
A million comforts cant break a shell
I'm trying, trust me i'm trying
You know i'm trying, i know i'm trying
I'm trying, you know i'm trying
I'm trying harder than i ever have
But mother-FUCK, the fear is back
It rips me up, and it pulls me back
Oh mother-FUCK, the fear is back
It rips me up, and it pulls me back
I feel no pressure and i pressurize myself
Why must my trust wane with nothing but want to keep it?
You tell me all the words i've ever wanted to hear
Why must the blades turn inward?
I dont feel hopeless, i know its time
Time and time and time again
And time again, i feel that instinct
That putrefying vile instinct
Mother-FUCK, the fear is back
Fear of love, how could one be so torn up?
Dragged along the floor as pebbles scrape railroads in my back

All i want is to walk into a home
Give me a home that'll accept me
Give me a home that'll hold me
Give me a home that will love me
Give me a home that will love me
Give me a home that won't hurt me
Oh please dear don't hurt me

Anything but another time through the wringer
Anything but another unraveling
Anything but ripping me to pieces
All over and over and over and over and over and over again
All the right words, just say them to me
Say them to me i know i can believe
Its been so long and its been so hard
But say all the words i need to hear
Because jesus christ i am pumped full of fear
I'll do my best, I'll do my best
Anything, just give me rest
I'll do my best, I'll do my best
Anything, just give me rest
I need a home
Don't cast me away
Don't let me go
I need you to stay
I can't keep drifting on my own anymore
Tumbling in the blackness as my skin shreds like ribbons
As my heart gets pumped with pus and grime
As my love corrodes to wretched meaninglessness
As my yearning becomes even more pathetic
As my self implodes into oblivion
As the black hole consumes me
The black hole almost consumed me
Exhumed my body and filled me with dirt
Don't throw me out back to that place
Don't let me go i beg you now
This is the ugly child
The ugly child
I have nothing to fear and i make it myself
And hear it all vomit out on the expanse
Oh

Don't leave me, i beg you please
Don't leave, don't go
Please don't go
Please don't go
Don't leave me alone
Don't feel differently
Mean what you say to me
Tell me like it is
I know you do
Just tell me like it is
I know you do
Just don't leave
Just don't go
Stay and i'll give you all i know
All i have, all i can, everything everything
Just don't go
Please don't go
Please just hold me
Never let go
Please just hold me
Never let go
I have so much to give
It feels like nothing but it must be something just
Don't let go
I can't be alone
I can't be on my own
It's too scary a world
I need a home
Don't let go
I can't be alone
I can't be on my own
It's too scary a world
I need a home
Please don't go