Trying Video (MV)

We had a lot to live up to
Now we got a lot to live down
We took our share of grave missteps
And I think they're haunting us now
I met you at a college bar on a lazy Tuesday
With a frat brother's mission to find
Everyone a local girl from the Northampton side
And you were my local girl that night

You could tell I was trying, you could tell I was trying
You could tell I was trying, you could tell I was trying

I remember lying on your floor mouthing the words to "Ballerina"
In the spring of 1969
Inflation was rising, the deficit soared
And Van the Man was coming into his prime
I got myself a job in trading on the NYSE
And your dad lent me a suit and a tie
The first time we heard Moondance, we were smoking on your roof
With the stars up above in your eyes

You could tell I was trying, you could tell I was trying
You could tell I was trying, You could tell I was trying

We set out for the city
But something got lost on the way
We made some friends you promptly pissed off
And I worked all night and all day
Then OPEC got sick of Nixon, oil prices shot up
Around the time we were saying our vows
Then the market took a dive, you took Quaaludes to sleep
But Van kept saying, "It's Too Late to Stop Now"

So I kept on trying, I kept on trying
I kept on trying, I kept on trying

You remember that summer in the city
With our roof deck on Park?
We let Volker fight inflation
While we drank Champagne in the dark
You were trying to get pregnant
You wanted big strapping sons
We probably should've cooled it on the wine
But baby we were having so much fun

Van was sang "Summertime in England", and the critics crucified him
But you and I, we always liked the song
I made a killing shorting silver and going long on index funds
And I swear we were high all summer long

And I was hardly trying. I was hardly trying
I was hardly trying. I was hardly trying

The 90s brought us Chandler, and Big Pharma Ads
And a Neo-Georgian estate in the 'burbs
You and Van were putting weight on but neither of you cared
And I watched your passion for health and drugs merge
The Prozac would put you to sleep, so you took Dexedrine to wake up
And Klonopin to calm yourself down
You'd have these lunches with your friends, you'd each drink a bottle of wine
Then pick Chandler up from school across town
She got your face and your hair and your nose and your chest
Not sure she got anything of mine
We spoiled her rotten but I still love her to death
And she sure as hell knows how to have a good time

But were you even trying? Were you even trying?
Sometimes I swear you weren't even trying
You weren't even trying

Now I'm sitting by the pool mouthing the words to Ballerina
In the summer of 2009
Chandler's out with her friends, you're upstairs in your room
You'll stay there for days at a time
It's just me and the dog now and this vodka on ice
I don't think you've showered in days
But sometimes I still see that girl singing "Ballerina"
Through the facelifts and pharmaceutical haze

So I'll keep on trying. I'll keep on trying
I'll keep on trying. I'll keep on trying