Adam Blad - PAUSE Lyrics

Cue the piano
Bring in the performer
Let him show you what he's got
I'll tell you how it happened
One day I decided that I'd up and write a song
So I grabbed a notebook and pencil and I started to write
My next couple days were a state of euphoria
I wrote what I wanted and I did what I liked
I played a cool hook on the piano after ordering a mic
It arrived later and I was ready to blow my cover that night
I'd taken for granted and I'd loved my old life
But not once I felt what this idol feeling was like
Now people scream Adam Blad like it's always been around
What was life like before I was drowned by my fans
To be completely honest with you I saw myself becoming like this
And music just unlocked the potential of my gifts
I'm usually misunderstood by everyone I talk to
They don't realize that I don't care what I come off as
Cause uh letting other people affect you only ends in depression
You are in control of your own emotions
So call me what you want
Prideful, arrogant, confident, or bad
And a list of other things that I won't sing about
It's called a hussle baby and it's the only way I know
So I'll be waiting for that apologetic phone call in a few short years from now
This is Adam Blad, you've got nothing to lose that's not worth losing
I wrote what I thought was music
But little did I know that Target would steal it
I'd set future exceptions from a couple of notes
Oh you know Adam Blad? Try again bro
These became common themes I dealt with
But you just gotta love the fans and forget the rest, oh
My future's looking bright, better wear some sunglasses
My music keeps getting better
It's so so fan fantastic (Back off Target)
Half my life is built on lies and a fake reality
To those I call my fans I stan the chivalry
Don't pretend like you know me
You only hear what I want you to hear
The real Adam Blad died after freshman year
I'm just reawakening his dream, and I'm going back in time
So I'll press pause and rewind while I grapple with myself
For over two years I've lived the pressure
For over two years I've all but become
A husk of wanting more from life
So I'll quit while I'm above
I'll realign my hopes with what they should've been
And the confidence in my appearance will sink into my body
And that's why I have to pause, for my sake
Before I'm no longer who I am
I'm just Adam Blad, I'm that Blad guy
I hope you see me as someone that wouldn't take no for an answer
Who saw a world empty of his influence and decided to fill that void
My old stuff will always be here for you, but now this is old too
18 years and what do I have to show for
Got a lot of fans but I always want more
Playing on stage makes me feel adored
Nothing like adrenaline from people yelling you're their idol
Is it bad that I want this, to be an idol, if I want to inspire people?
I'm doing everything I can to stay true to myself more than my fans
I'm not quitting music that was just for show
I thought a pause could do me some good, help me improve
Sure gave the fans quite a scare
I've quite literally forgotten how to live without this here
I've acted out an image I wanted to be
But now that image has turned into me
I can't leave this now cause I don't know how
I can't act like this isn't me, I realize that now
Woah
I think I'm just gonna take a step back and appreciate, um everything that has led me here
And you know sometimes you just gotta stop doing what you're doing to appreciate what you have
And appreciate what you hold dear
And that's why I just sometimes, that's why sometimes you just gotta
Well that's why I'm, that's why I'm taking a
Taking a pause