Anxiety (feat. Lilly Aroha & Shoebox) Video (MV)

I don't appreciate when I'm f*cked up by myself
And you deserve me
It's like I'm so unworthy
I don't appreciate all those restless nights
I was locked up with my demons
But until the day
I said I'm never going to run away
(I'm living with anxiety)

There are moments where I'm feeling closer to the edge
My heart is racing all I ever think about is this
I'm trying my best under all this stress not to convince
Myself to make mistakes cause things will get worse if I did
I tend to hold onto the things that put me to the test
As if I put a leash on them they'll follow me till death
Don't want to carry all this weight I feel it in my chest
God help me stop the rain before the flood comes drifting in

I'm just running and I'm running
Yeah I'm running just be running
I'll be running yeah I'm running
To escape this mind control
Everything that makes me feel
But I don't want to feel no more
I'm just running and I'm running
Yeah I'm running just be running
I'll be running yeah I'm running
To escape this mind control
Everything that makes me feel
But I don't want to feel no more

It makes me feel like I'm most alive when
Heart rate rises, anxiety climbs in
No I don't like it, not saying I do
But I found that if I fight it
I start sliding in two

A point and no return and I have learned to calm the nerves
Sweaty palms, said he's gone, but I'm not concerned
Cause the heart of a bird only flutters when it flies
It's exactly why I feel most alive
When a heart rate rises, I use it as guidance
Cause I'm the only pilot of this ride in my mind
And the man that I am will never be defined
As a pawn, a slave, my soul they won't take
Anxiety that keeps me on my toes and wide awake
I've tried so many times but I just cannot escape it
I'm tired from constantly trying to run away
So I faced it, embrace it, the race with the dark days
I'm afraid
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't
Cause fear of death and dying
That makes all of this so lovely
The yin and the yang within is called balance
Anxiousness, It's been a personal challenge of mine

I'm just running and I'm running
Yeah I'm running just be running
I'll be running yeah I'm running
To escape this mind control
Everything that makes me feel
But I don't want to feel no more
I'm just running and I'm running
Yeah I'm running just be running
I'll be running yeah I'm running
To escape this mind control
Everything that makes me feel
But I don't want to feel no more

I'm never going to run away
No matter what you try to make me think or make me feel
Don't want to feel the pain again

I'm just running and I'm running
Yeah I'm running just be running
I'll be running yeah I'm running
To escape this mind control
Everything that makes me feel
But I don't want to feel no more
I'm just running and I'm running
Yeah I'm running just be running
I'll be running yeah I'm running
To escape this mind control
Everything that makes me feel
But I don't want to feel no more

I don't appreciate when I'm f*cked up by myself
(I'm living with anxiety, afraid of everything I want and yet I try to be)
And you deserve me
(Better than the lies beneath)
It's like I'm so unworthy
(Treading in the waters of my doubts when the tides will breathe)
(Am I living in a dream)
I don't appreciate all those restless nights
(I'm living with anxiety, afraid of everything I want and yet I try to be)
I was locked up with my demons
(Better than the lies beneath)
(Treading in the waters of my doubts when the tides will breathe)
But until the day
(Treading in the waters of my doubts when the tides will breathe)
(Am I living in a dream)
I said I'm never going to run away