What I Go Through Video (MV)

You lose sight of the people and
The blessings that you have around you
Your so focused on the next success the next step
In your career, the next jet, whatever it is
And you forget the fact that you have
These things that seem small
Um, if your looking that way
But if you look this way
You realize they're the only thing that matters
And that's your mother, that your family, that's love
It ain't what they say it is
But when saving it before saying shit
Can change the way we make of it and take from it
Looking through favorite clips just to savior it
Time itself makes old times feel like a sudden dream
It's funny how being in a relationship means cutting strings
I lost contact with my hurting brother in between
Falling in love with my lady and learning what it brings
Raising hell
Cause my momma raised me well
I used to do for others now I just do for my self
They all speak about who they hear about
With no care about
Avoiding sharing out my whereabouts
They don't know what I go through
I've been going through a lot of things
They don't know what I told you
I've been surprised like why'd you ever change
All this pain that I feel by myself, gon heal by itself
They don't know what I go through
I've been going through a lot of things
I admit I can't forget or forgive
Things we did as kids
Cause difference is, this my life to live
Those good day turned to dark nights
Causing me to give up speaking to my family
To water the dying tree
Please tell me what it's got to be
Is it the greater side of jealousy
Or it's the reality outside of weed
Man, probably
It's just, I was speechless
But now I can say what can, damn, finally
I tried sobering up
Nah, I ain't opening up
There's dumb arguments that should go in the tuck
That type of stuff that your holding too much
I don't owe too much
But they made me who I am so I owe them enough
Excluding basic confusion
From the same shoulder strut
From holding a grudge
To becoming each others crutch
Man there's times I just need someone
Or my whole family
They show me why
I shouldn't make my own family
Because they tell me dream small
Or don't dream at all
Damn, your supposed to help me stand
When I'm about to fall
Your supposed to be on hand
When I'm about to call
Your supposed to ride
Even if your not involved
My wins are our win but not when its a lost
Like I need to pay the consequences
No care in the cost
Your supposed to be the main ones
I feel safe with
But I don't know who really
Loves me since they barely say it
They don't know what I go through
I've been going through a lot of things
They don't know what I told you
I've been surprised like why'd you ever change
All this pain that I feel by myself, gon heal by itself
They don't know what I go through
I've been going through a lot of things
I'll take my mistakes back
You know what I'm missing
My brother not going through a life-threatening condition
I'll try to grant it, I'll try to grant it
Tell them pray everyday
Cause life isn't something you take for granted
If you plan it then understand if
Nothing is handed
To go get it before ya dreams start to vanish
It's a shame
I feel like I'm the one to blame
Shit, I can't explain
But they feel everything I'm saying
Misconception comes when you split connections
And I bet it was our quick intention
To exploit our choice
To express where we're heading
With no definition to hold everything we kept in
Man by now
Family is hanging by a thread
And they'll try cover everything I said
Instead of coming as one before they'll become
The ones to regret their decisions
& everything they've done
So listen to me please, let me speak
I'm going way too deep, but family "is" my dream
You gotta let me go through my thing
So that thing won't feel like your thing
Which means let me be
So you won't breathe
What this body breathes
So you won't see what his body sees
Or gain greed cause this body needs
Everything this body needs
Before lord bodies me
I want my old life back it hasn't been the same
What matters is, how I lose happiness before having it
Maybe cause I asked for it
Man, I just need half of it
But god won't grant it
Since he never understand shit
But let me get this off my chest
Sorry momma, if I ever made you cry mama
Feeling too young to not have it all
Feeling too old to not have it all
They don't know what I go through
I've been going through a lot of things
They don't know what I told you
I've been surprised like why'd you ever change
All this pain that I feel by myself, gon heal by itself
They don't know what I go through
I've been going through a lot of things