And Action
Yeah, uh huh
I know you so well, ever felt how I felt
Ever dealt what I dealt
Only dollar and a dream had fell in a well
Right now, I'm only worried about the food thats on my plate
I ain't interested in some love, I love it more when its all hate
I truly miss all the happiness &
Problems that came with my momma house
12 years young I'm just finding out
Why mom cried the day before my birthday &
What she cried about
Cause 3 years old brother Evel and autistic sister Christina
Died in this kind of house, back in 92
I try to provide for mine, like they did for me
& if I can't do it right now, well as long as I tried to
Shit what's getting me mad, Stressing about where you at
Then get up & get off of your ass
They're no better feeling in the world
Than taking yours out & taking the tab
Y'all all I'll ever have
I get flashback to our laughs
Til reality drifts right past then snap
We're back so fast
To this life we never asked
Just a tad bit of joy
I keep telling myself I got this shit but I don't think I could last
Shit, I know I can't last
I know I can't last
Hard to even sleep in
Hard to even think of heaven cause
I'm steady drinking with some demons
It's hard, It's hard
Hard to even sleep in
Hard to even think of heaven cause
I'm steady drinking with some demons
It's hard, It's hard
Everybody ends up leaving
Or ain't breathing for no reason
Brother Dom & Danny been beefing & barely speaking
Mom works a 9-5 Monday thru Friday
& still take care of Danny on the weekends
Benny been at the lost & found
Changed for the worst & been falling down
Since that ultrasound
Truly am, scared & worried for him
Man, I'm boutta call him now
Apologies to my father, man the love is there
If I ain't there, conflict grew with the daycare
Reasons for all your grey hairs
I was stuck up with my love story like Shakespeare
But understand, to never say that I ain't care
Lil sister Destiny, she's about be seventeen
Everything that I ever seen
Won't resonate, with what she's telling me
& that's the main reason I let her be
She's at that age, where everything that you ever say
Means you know nothing about her everyday
I'ma cut it right there