Mental notes of your small crimes
(I wasn't ready for it)
Waiting for the right time to call you out so I can leave
(I needed a reason to be alone)
By myself, I can drink for two
What i would like is to be warm inside with you
But all these vices have a grip on me
(Wish I was better but)?
Scared of the things you'll see if I were to stay
I don't want to throw away the key
Cuz I have been here before
And my heart and brain are always miles apart
Pushing you closer to my edge
(Pushing you closer to my edge)
(Pushing you closer to my edge)
So that can leave
(and be alone)
I don't think we'd make it if you keep me here
It's best that I'm alone
(please move out the way, I've gotta go)
You're not meant to see this side of me
You haven't seen me lose control
Please just let me leave
(I drink until the morning's come up
And try to keep you from me
It gives me all the time to come up
Excuses and the lies I need to
Drink 'til there's no signs of life left
I don't wanna let you go
But I need a lifeline for the night)
I was gonna lie but now that you have found me
When you are away
I pull the fifth hidden high up for me by the kitchen window
And I drink until there is no signs of life
So give me a lifeline for the night
Give me a reason
To run away
Either way, I'm leaving
And since you know now,
Don't leave me outside
Just needed a reason to
To hide all, hide all my demons
From you
Just needed a reason
(to run, run, run)
Run before, the same things plague me
Driving me to insanity
I need me a reason to run
Just give me one more night