Pape On My Plate Video (MV)

Every time I open my feelings I feel raw
Hand on my celly I know i ain't even get a call
I make people jaded i'm doing them like will
Front row center and my back against the wall
Standing by myself but walking away tall
Humble in the way I'm talking with no gall
Stress over due like trying to pay bills
But I can't be stopped I'm out here trynna go ball

I'm like hold up can you hear me out for a minute
I know when I'm wrong. but it's hard admit it
Maybe I'm just stubborn and I'm trynna forget it
Turning new leafs as an act of contrition
Hold up spare me a couple of second
I know I ain't perfect and I know I regret it
I f*ck up a lot and I'm learning my lessons
That's all I can do not perfect but present
I don't wanna live a life of disappointment
I'm dealing with more than pape on my plate
You see what I want you to see
Ripley's you think it's try not to believe
I don't wanna keep letting my people down
I'm dealing with more than pape on my plate
Figure out who I wanna be
No limits far as I can see

Look apology aside
A side of me can see that entomology is just a means to get some honesty
But honestly I feel the obligation calling audibly
And probably if i was given choices
Consequently ain't no promising
But promises were meant to broken I heard the policy
And feels like I'm just following orders I do them hostilely
Rather follow people blindly than living with no direction
A little of a projection correction this is deflection
From issue that I'm not God I'm disconnected when hurt
And forgiveness is just a blur you'll hate me when at my worst
And take this with grains of salt I was cut out of quarries
I'm made to be who I am but who I am is what worries
These urges I'm trynna purge while splurging in to some greed
The guilt is too much to bear while bringing to my knees
I'm calling out to be saved while in the land of the thieves
But my heart was stolen long ago obviously
I'm like hold up can you hear me out for a minute
I know when I'm wrong. but it's hard admit it
Maybe I'm just stubborn and I'm trynna forget it
Turning new leafs as an act of contrition
Hold up spare me a couple of second
I know I ain't perfect and I know I regret it
I f*ck up a lot and I'm learning my lessons
That's all I can do not perfect but present
I don't wanna live a life of disappointment
I'm dealing with more than pape on my plate
You see what I want you to see
Ripley's you think it's try not to believe
I don't wanna keep letting my people down
I'm dealing with more than pape on my plate
Figure out who I wanna be
No limits far as I can see

Keep on killing myself
Back burner for my health
Blood sweat tear leave trail nah
Keep on killing myself
Back burner for my health
Blood sweat tear leave trail

I'm sorry for the stress of putting people through to see the truth
That in my life i feel emptiness to lose and need to prove
That I can over compensate when prices being raised
And then receipts are being shown and most of all the debt is paid
Because the feeling of remorse is something I don't like to feel
My momma told me growing up that she admired I had will
And if I put my mind up to it any task was getting done
Now I'm thinking to myself look how far I have come
And look how far that I've grown and regressed in some areas
Anxiety and dark thinking led to my hysteria
I hate saying sorry cause it feels like I ain't do enough
But sorry that I come off heartless acting like I'm choosing up
Sorry that I don't stay true to myself
Sorry that even when I win that I fail
Sorry my sincerity got lost in the mail
I'm hoping in the future I'm a better man as well