Ace Fresco - Flaw Or Fly Lyrics

I'm paranoid about my life and finding inner truth
I'm paranoid about the heights I climb to peak the room
I'm paranoid about my past making current news
I'm paranoid about my wins they feel like I lose
I'm paranoid about my heart I hope it never dims
I'm paranoid about my family hope they never wince
I'm paranoid about the streets blood soaked and rinse
I'm paranoid about my paranoia ever since

I was kid my anxiety was the roots of my issues
Wasn't beneficial being the nigga you could vent to but never could vent
My intent was to project a sense I was trynna prevent
And my respect was an aspect that I would resent
I never meant to be the type that would always deflect
I say it with my chest
Nah I'm speaking from diaphragm
Picture that matter fact here's another diagram
My parents dropped 5 racks just to get my teeth straight
But a part of me wished that I could still get veneers
Cause I was never satisfied insecurely state
Cause I was feeling pressure like how I would appear
I bought a pair or Jordans I was trynna be independent
Found out they were fake and I thought the whole world was gonna end
Back then I was just getting into latest trends
But that setback set me back another 10
Years weeks months
Now and days time just fades together
I try to go outside but I hate the weather
Meet new people everyday I can't face whoever
With a clean slate
Mistrust got me feeling different each day
My pride is my keep sake
So no can't relax
I see the goons plotting on me
So if you see me trynna swerve don't go talking to me
Up the 5 percent tints
Rolling down Durham
Can't nobody go and track my motion
The other week I doubled back like a couple of times
Could've swore I saw the same car stopped at the light
You may call it delusions
I call it keeping three eyes locked
On the prize and the block on the guys and the opps
Niggas going out sad and they bean got stalked
Cause they talked now they stretched in the streets with some chalk like

I don't confide that isn't me
Hear the rumors conspiracies
Who is who suspiciously
Maybe cause they envy me
I'm down bad in disbelief
Everywhere I see enemies
Prophesying the end of me
Don't know when but we gonna see

Float through the floor of the sunken place
Olympic bound got a mile watch me run in place
I'll settle down open up for some company
And move around culturally need a foreign taste
But think about everybody that I failed back when
I had doubts everyday living in my skin
Then coming out of the shadows with a new found wit
I'm now proud cause my ego going 10 for 10
I'm outside feeling better than I ever did
My ideas more focused than I ever spit
Tried to find the blueprints now I am the grid
Scared to show the strong side now I am the blitz
Cared about other people what they thought of me
But f*ck that if I got niggas who still rock with me
What's a reason for a search cause that's all I need
I know myself I ain't here to be a wannabe