ABSNT - Pictures Lyrics

Lift myself up off the pavement
My hopes are growing jaded and I'm struggling to save 'em
I hate that I'm complacent with the strain that I've been facing
Tension pulling at my insides, they're tied up like some laces
Vision blurred when I see familiar faces
Knowing that the man you loved is not the man that you're embracing
It's an understatement when I say I'm changing
These clouds just keep on raining, my power keeps on draining
I had to burn these broken thoughts to reach my renaissance
Bobbing and weaving side to side as I bear a cross
The cycle, it continues, my love, I leave it with you
I set it on your nightstand next to the box of tissues
I'm sorry for the all these mistakes, I'm sorry for my issues
I'm sorry that we made these plans that we could never stick to
I'm sorry that I was too stubborn to recover with you
I'm sorry that the love you coveted could never lift you

I've been burning pictures
I've been breaking promises and using them as tinder
I've been burning bridges
Using up the threads from your sweater for my stitches

I'm fanning the flames, staring at the blaze
I could stand here for days where clarity remains
It's twisted like a maze, or your hair in a braid
The binding breaks as I'm tearing out another page
Every treacherous event's another lesson to heed
Reflections on the past are a reflection of me
Sometimes I can't help projection, it's just a method to keep
Myself invested, its a habit that has yet to secede
Like "That's your ego talking, better proceed with caution"
I'm asking "where's the love?", 'cause I don't see it often
I can't sleep, I'm nauseous, I'm thinking on these losses
The closure I can't provide would leave you in the darkness
This guilt is like a sickness
I would do it all again for the price of any riches
'Cause the tensions 'bout to break, wish I had a way to fix it
It would a take a leap of faith, I can't blame you if you wouldn't risk it

I've been burning pictures
I've been breaking promises and using them as tinder
I've been burning bridges
Using up the threads from your sweater for my stitches