Yea
Matters of the brain had me going insane
Stuck in my ways terrified I ain't going to change
I pray to God but it's weird when I call on His name
Cuz I don't see Him so I can't shake the feeling to feel alone
Cuz I can't do this on my own
It's scary when I think about the times I thought I was right, when really I was wrong
Yea
I am blessed in ways I don't see until after the matter
Until after it shatters
Until I'm backed in a corner of decisions I hate to choose
I'm not a sore loser but Lord knows I hate to lose
But if it's for the greater good I'm not afraid to bruise
I'm terrified of life and I'm afraid to fill his shoes too soon
Before I'm ready for it
Running head first instead of slow and steady for it
But this I can't ignore it
Making all of the wrong decisions
Shaking my pastor's hand while I'm questioning my religion
Been giving into demons I think it's time that I listen
To the voice in my head that's tryna help me complete the mission God enlisted
Sometimes I wonder if I'm worthy of heaven
Or do I deserve the flame
To people that don't deserve it
All I do is give them love
So I think it's only right that I deserve the same