A State of Being - Cedarwood Lyrics

Broke myself to believe that you loved me
Gave my faith that it wasn't a game
Turned the blind eye to demons I could see
Convinced myself I couldn't feel pain

I Rot in place
Death be my grace
Close my eyes
Just to see your face
Peel this skin
From its bones
Give me strength
To set fire to this home

I will devour these demons
Claw their eyes from their f*cking heads
Even if this fight f*cking kills me
If I have to feel this I'd rather be dead

Left defeated
Released in these pieces
Feel the blood loss
In all these caved veins
Rooted heart that has scars that have deepened
I can hide it but still it remains

I have changed
Yet the pain remains
If I knew what I knew now
I'd rip my own throat out
Place my self on the cross and
Slowly
I'd fade away

I Rot in place
Death be my grace
Close my eyes
Just to see your face
Peel this skin
From its bones
Give me strength
To set fire to this home

All of the years I wiped tears from your face
Took you three f*cking weeks and you had me replaced
Now I lie in these shadows with one thing I pray
When you look in his eyes you'll remember
My f*cking name

If I was born to drown
You let me bathe in the flood

I let myself die on cedarwood