The Beautiful Dark of Life Album Lyrics by Atreyu

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Drowning

Watching the walls in my head growing higher
Weight of my thoughts got me too tired to climb
I'm screaming for help as I suffer in silence
Knife at my neck and I'm numb to the violence

'Cause I'm drowning
Head underwater, I'm alone
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow (caught in the undertow)

Go

The clouds in my head always block out the sun
I keep having nightmares of not waking up
Will I stay in here for a lifetime?
(Will I stay in here for a lifetime?)
Who is the one to decide (who the f*ck am I?)

If I'm drowning
Head underwater, I'm alone
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow
And it feels like I'm trying to find something
That was never even there
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow (caught in the undertow)

(I'm drowning)
(I'm drowning)
(Caught in the undertow)

And it feels like I'm trying to find something
That was never even there
I'm drowning
Caught in the undertow
Caught in the undertow

I'm drowning in the undertow

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Insomnia

I wish I could fall asleep
Thoughts of peace are haunting me
Begging for a lucid dream
My mental state is crushing me

TV static, blinking eights (TV static, blinking eights)
Eyes wide open, can't escape (eyes wide open, can't escape)
I'm not breathing but it's all the same (breathing but it's all the same)
Is living just a losing game?

Can't keep my head up, I'm drowning underwater
Life is getting harder, will I sink or swim?
It's like the days pass slower than the nights last
I just need a break, man, will I sink or swim?

Insomnia, insomnia
Will I sink or swim?
Insomnia, insomnia
Will I sink or swim?
Insomnia

I wish my brain could simply change like the weather
But here I am, it's pouring rain without a f*cking umbrella
Strangers are screaming but I'm here all alone
The walls come crashing down on me as I

Echo my heart beat, shatter my lungs
I can't escape my thoughts
So I'll just swallow my tongue
Spilling these words in blood onto a blank page
I swear I didn't feel this way back when I was young
I swear I didn't feel this way back when I was young

Can't keep my head up, I'm drowning underwater
Life is getting harder, will I sink or swim?
It's like the days pass slower than the nights last
I just need a break, man, will I sink or swim?

I'm taking my chances, I'm leaving my sanity
Buried it down in this hole in me (buried it down)
I'm losing the battle, I start to unravel
Until there is nothing that's left in me

Can't keep my head up, I'm drowning underwater
Life is getting harder, will I sink or swim?
It's like the days pass slower than the nights last
I just need a break, man, will I sink or swim?

Insomnia, insomnia
Will I sink or swim?
Insomnia, insomnia
Will I sink or swim?
Insomnia

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Capital F

Is it just me or are we all capital F f*cked?

The world is on fire, but we're smiling
Put the pieces together just to divide them
We are the maniacal force, we are the poison
Building up a city of gold, just to destroy it

And we've dug ourselves, an early grave
Holding onto the innocence of a child
'Cause after a while we find ourselves thinking

Is it just me or are we all capital F f*cked?
Everybody sucks
Feeling like I'm stuck
We've been tripping on our guts
Choking on our tongues
Capital F f*cked

Sell me the American dream
Then scream in my face to explain what it means
If the long arm of God will carry us all
Then why the f*ck are we still singing this song?

Is it just me or are we all capital F f*cked?
Everybody sucks
Feeling like I'm stuck
We've been tripping on our guts
Choking on our tongues
Capital F f*cked

Hold your tongue to the blade
Just to feel something
The blood tastes better
Than accepting we're too f*cking late
We're too f*cking late

Is it just me or are we all capital F f*cked?
Everybody sucks
Feeling like I'm stuck
We've been tripping on our guts
Choking on our tongues
Capital F f*cked

Is it just me or are we all capital F f*cked?
Everybody sucks
Feeling like I'm stuck
We've been tripping on our guts
Choking on our tongues
Capital F f*cked

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God/Devil

I think I'm wide awake
But I must be dreaming
Cold sweats with hearts ablaze
But the heat of hell consumes me

The whole foundation's cracked
Let's take the power back
So crush me down to dust
In ruin we trust

Angels or demons
Will you save me?
Can you see me falling?
God or the devil
Can you see me?
Can you hear my call?

Searching for hope within
While falling faster
Struggling to find a light
With looming disaster

The whole foundation's cracked
I can take the power back
So crush me down to dust
In ruin we trust

Angels or demons
Will you save me?
Can you see me falling?
God or the devil
Can you see me?
Can you hear my call?

Angels or demons
Will you save me?
Can you see me falling?
God or the devil
Can you see me?
Can you hear my call?

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Watch Me Burn

Come and watch me burn, burn, burn
Watch me burn, burn, burn
Watch me burn

Paint it all black
Take my life back
Buried it six feet in the past

Aim for my chest
Take deep breaths
Thought you had me beat
But I still cheat death

Mix my blood with the ashes
Spark into a flame 'til it crashes down
You carve my name in the casket
Get the matches

If you set it all on fire
I'll be fighting 'til my last breath
Even when flames grow higher
I'll be fighting 'til I'm dead

So gimme what you got
I will never stop
Cover me in gasoline
Burn it down
I'll be fighting 'til my last breath
Come and watch me burn

Liar, liar, bite your tongue
Trying to tear me down
With your smoke filled lungs
Watch them falling one by one
Your time has come

If you set it all on fire
I'll be fighting 'til my last breath
Even when flames grow higher
I'll be fighting 'til I'm dead

So gimme what you got
I will never stop
Cover me in gasoline
Burn it down
I'll be fighting 'til my last breath
Come and watch me burn

Watch me burn

If you set it all on fire
I'll be fighting 'til my last breath
Even when flames grow higher
I'll be fighting 'til I'm dead

So gimme what you got
I will never stop
Cover me in gasoline
Burn it down
I'll be fighting 'til my last breath

Come and watch me burn, burn, burn
Watch me burn, burn, burn
Come and watch me burn

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Good Enough

I'm breaking, I hate it
Face it, my almost is fading
Tear me down, erase these
Blameless, basic excuses
Get off the ground
Somehow the vultures circling over me
Know that I can't shake them
Broken cycle keeps tearing me down

Hey you, are you good enough?
Or are you giving up?
Don't you know we all bleed the same damn thing?
Are you standing face to face with all the demons in the way?
Hey you, are you good enough?
Or are you giving up?

Can you see the good in anything?
But if you can't believe that
The beaten, the broken, defeated
Can come back as a leader
Then what's worth believing?
What's worth believing?

Hey you, are you good enough?
Or are you giving up?
Don't you know we all bleed the same damn thing?
Are you standing face to face with all the demons in the way?
Hey you, are you good enough?
Or are you giving up?

Give us all your broken, all your bleeding
One with the rising phoenix
All your broken, all your bleeding
One with the rising phoenix

Give us all your broken, all your bleeding
One with the rising phoenix
All your broken, all your bleeding

Hey you, are you good enough?
Or are you giving up?
Don't you know we all bleed the same damn thing?
Are you standing face to face with all the demons in the way?
Hey you, are you good enough?
Or are you giving up?

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Dancing With My Demons

Another day in waste, down in my own hell
Another stumble while I constantly try to rebuild myself
You know that I've been trying
To embrace my shadow
One foot in the grave
And the other in a race to break this cycle

I've been dancing (dancing) with my demons (demons)
If I could make 'em stay away I'd be in a better place, better place
I've been dancing (dancing) with my demons (demons)
If I could make 'em stay away I'd be in a better place
But I'm dancing with my demons

And so I'd slip back down into this downward spiral
Until I hit the bottom
And finally rest within my sorrow
And it's an endless road, I feel the ebb and flow (the ebb and flow)
So tonight I sleep with the ghosts I know

I've been dancing (dancing) with my demons (demons)
If I could make 'em stay away I'd be in a better place, better place
I've been dancing (dancing) with my demons (demons)
If I could make 'em stay away I'd be in a better place
But I'm dancing with my demons

Dancing with my demons
Take me to my grave

I've been dancing (dancing) with my demons (demons)
If I could make 'em stay away
I'd be in a better place, better place
I've been dancing (dancing) with my demons (demons)
If I could make 'em stay away I'd be in a better place
But I'm dancing with my demons

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Gone

What a shame, all your sweet remains are scattered 'cross the room
Cigarettes that once graced your lips are now trampled wounds
There were times I thought I would try to reach out to you
But now sorry's late and it's overplayed, just a sad excuse

I didn't know how to love you, I didn't know how to care
Stood on the cracks while you fell through, I watched as you disappeared
I didn't know how to love you, I know that it wasn't fair
Think we both know who to point to, I have to live with your tears

And now you're gone, gone, gone
And now you're gone, gone, gone

I picture you on the steps, the way you cradled your head
Remembering how you wept and now my biggest regret
Is all that I never said, I couldn't give you my best
We came apart at the threads

I didn't know how to love you, I didn't know how to care
Stood on the cracks while you fell through, I watched as you disappeared
I didn't know how to love you, I know that it wasn't fair
Think we both know who to point to, I have to live with your tears

And now you're gone
And now you're gone, gone, gone
Come on

I didn't know how to love you, I didn't know how to care
Stood on the cracks while you fell through, I watched as you disappeared
I didn't know how to love you, I know that it wasn't fair
Think we both know who to point to, I have to live with your tears

And now you're gone, gone, gone
(I'm watching, I'm watching, I'll watch as you disappear)
And now you're gone, gone, gone
(I'm watching, I'm watching, I'll watch as you disappear)
Gone, gone, gone (I'm watching, I'm watching, I'll watch as you disappear)
And now you're gone, gone, gone
(I'm watching, I'm watching, I'll watch as you disappear)

I'm watching, I'm watching, I'll watch as you disappear
I'm watching, I'm watching, I'll watch as you disappear

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I Don't Wanna Die

Chains, holding me
Set me free from this prison I've made for myself
How do we make believe
This is more than hell?

I have to find a way
I have to find a way to survive

'Cause I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
'Cause I know it's not my time
And I don't want to say goodbye
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
'Cause I know it's not my time
And I don't want to say goodbye

Strange, this destiny
Bravery, walk me through these gates
I have built around myself
How do we still believe in ourselves?

I've gotta find a way
I've gotta find a way to survive

'Cause I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
'Cause I know it's not my time
And I don't want to say goodbye
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
'Cause I know it's not my time
And I don't want to say goodbye
(I don't want to say goodbye)

'Cause I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die (I don't wanna die)
'Cause I know it's not my time
And I don't want to say goodbye (don't want to say goodbye)
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die (I don't wanna die)
'Cause I know it's not my time
And I don't want to say goodbye

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Immortal

Talked so much shit your mouth is numb
Your words mean nothing, you should run
Back to that hole where you came from
You're nothing, no one gives a f*ck
I'll still be here when you are gone
And I'll have everything you want
When all the air seeps out your lungs
I'll be the smoke that you choke on

'Cause legends rise
Through burning skies you made me

Immortal, my name is etched in stone
Immortal, while you remain unknown
These mountains, I have climbed
And from the ashes I will rise up
Immortal

And all the gossip turned to dust
It only served to lift me up
Tearing me down just built me up
So high that I cannot be touched

Immortal, my name is etched in stone
Immortal, while you remain unknown
These mountains, I have climbed
And from the ashes I will rise up
Immortal

(I will never die)
(Don't you f*cking try it)
(You have made me immortal)
(I will never die)
(Don't you f*cking try)
(You have made me immortal)

I will never die
Don't you f*cking try it
You made me immortal
I will never die
Don't you f*cking try it
You made me immortal

'Cause legends rise
Through burning skies you made me

Immortal, my name is etched in stone
Immortal, while you remain unknown
These mountains, I have climbed
And from the ashes I will rise up
Immortal

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(i)

Peel back the layers of my skin
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Tell me who the f*ck have I been
After all this time
It's a lie
It's a lie
It's a lie

Brace your self this is
Hard enough
Fall part as
I fade into blank space

Same shit
Same place
I dissolve
Just a flame
Withering in the wind gone

Peel back the layers of my skin
Take a look inside
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Tell me who the f*ck have I been
After all this time
It's a lie
It's a lie
It's a lie

I believe
You're a thief
Stealing what I leave behind
With nothing to spare

Copying
Everything
Wasting reality
Do you even care?

Peel back the layers of my skin
Take a look inside
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Tell me who the f*ck have I been
After all this time
It's a lie
It's a lie
It's a lie

Do I live in this shell or just sever ties?
It feels like the old me is dead inside
Inside

Peel back the layers of my skin
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Tell me who the f*ck have I been
After all this time
It's a lie
It's a lie
It's a lie


Peel back the layers of my skin
Take a look inside
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Tell me who the f*ck have I been
After all this time
It's a lie
It's a goddamn f*cking lie
Lie

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Death Or Glory

Another angel falls
And I don't recognize who I've become
A burning sun

Everything ends, it's a promise
The good and the bad and the heartless
Life's a bitch then you die
I'm never the one to be praying
But while I'm on earth I'm decaying
Always ready to fly

I don't fear the death of my story
Everything that glitters isn't gold, ya know
That I don't need your love, I'm sorry
To save me from the fall to the devil's home

Give me death or glory
Give me death or glory

I built these wings on the back of
The blood, the sweat, the fears of all my doubts
Burning out

Everything ends, it's a promise
The good and the bad and the heartless
Life's a bitch then you die
I'm never the one to be praying
But while I'm on earth I'm decaying
Always ready to fly

I don't fear the death of my story
Everything that glitters isn't gold, ya know
That I don't need your love, I'm sorry
To save me from the fall to the devil's home

Give me death or glory
Give me death or glory

Denied myself the faith in the father, son
The hate of those down below
And I'm on my own

Denied myself the faith in the father, son
The hate of those down below
I'm on my own

I don't fear the death of my story
Everything that glitters isn't gold, ya know
That I don't need your love, I'm sorry
To save me from the fall to the devil's home

Give me death or glory
Give me death or glory

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Forevermore

I was living in a black hole
Darkness seemed to follow me
I was driving down a dead road
The shadows, they would swallow me
But a star was in the distance
A sliver of light, it came to me
Like a glitch into the system
You shine on and break me free

Now, I will never leave
You were meant for me

Take my life without you
I would die without you
Take the joy and sadness
Burn the rest to ashes
I'll be waiting on my deathbed (waiting on my deathbed)
Saving my last breath for you
Take my life without you
I would die without you

My soul was shattered into pieces
Jagged edges built a home
Wearing a crown isn't as heavy
When you'd decide to share the throne

Now, I will never leave
You were meant for me

Take my life without you
I would die without you
Take the joy and sadness
Burn the rest to ashes
I'll be waiting on my deathbed (waiting on my deathbed)
Saving my last breath for you
Take my life without you
I would die without you

Forever, forevermore
You're my forevermore
Forever, forevermore
You're my forevermore

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Come Down

I'm so high
I, I don't ever wanna come down
I don't ever wanna come down, down, down

Revelry is a fickle beast
To keep me out of my head, I need a special place
Where my devils can meet their selfish demons
I got to keep this dog fed before it sinks his teeth in

Sleep-walking in the undertow
I slowly see the light
Imperfect at the surface
Watch this bastard come to life

I've been so high
I, I don't ever wanna come down
I don't ever wanna come down, down, down

I've been so high
I, I don't ever wanna come down
I don't ever wanna come down, down, down, goodbye

Reality is a fickle beast, a fickle beast
Cruel, impatient and cold
I need a, a sacred place
Between loving the peace and losing my grip
I got to chain this beast up before it bites me again

Sleep-walking in the undertow
I slowly see the light
Imperfect at the surface
Watch this f*cker come to life

I've been so high
I, I don't ever wanna come down (I don't ever wanna come down)
I don't ever wanna come down, down, down

I've been so high (I'm so high)
I, I don't ever wanna come down (I don't ever wanna come down)
I don't ever wanna come down, down, down, goodbye

Have we all, have we all lost our minds?
May we all get a little lost sometimes
Have we all, have we all lost our minds?
May we all get a little lost sometimes

I've been so high
I, I don't ever wanna come down
I don't ever wanna come down, down, down

I've been so high
I, I don't ever wanna come down
I don't ever wanna come down, down, down, goodbye

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The Beautiful Dark Of Life

Are you scared of death or afraid of living?
Walk into a crawl
I've been running backwards since the beginning
I find my grace where I find my hate
In the darkest place

Burn it, burn it down
And find yourself

A torch in the dark
A lighthouse among the waves
I will find a way
The hope of a spark
The moment you find your flame
In the beautiful dark of life

Take your time, pressure makes a diamond
Pull the stitches from your lips
'Cause if you ain't bleeding then you ain't trying
And I find my peace in a violent place
The warm embrace of darkness

A torch in the dark
A lighthouse among the waves
I will find a way
The hope of a spark
The moment you find your flame
In the beautiful dark of life

If I die tonight, will you remember me?
I'll stay right here, safe in your memory
If I die tonight, will you remember me?
I'll stay right here, safe in your memory

If I die tonight, will you remember me?
I'll stay right here, safe in your memory
If I die tonight, will you remember me?
I'll stay right here, safe in your memory

A torch in the dark
A lighthouse among the waves
I will find a way
The hope of a spark
The moment you find your flame
In the beautiful dark of life

If I die tonight, will you remember me?
I'll stay right here safe in your memory
If I die tonight, will you remember me?
I'll stay right here safe in your memory (in the beautiful dark of life)