7uke - Thoughts in My Head Lyrics

Used to be gods devouted soilder like an angel i fell
If i make it up to them gates
My name aint ringin no bells
This world f*cked up im over tryin
Shit aint goin to well
I aint never been scared of dyin cause we already in hell
Somehow i jus cant kick the lean
I see codeine when i piss
How the f*ck they kill my lil brother
An im the one gets to live
Mom think i got ptsd from all the trauma an shit
You think you comin after me
You got one shot so dont miss
Was born with music in my soul
I engraved that in my skin
I miss back when my heart wasn't cold
I aint felt that in a min
Next year is 2020 clear view
So i can see straight again
I left them people in the rear view
We never speakin again
An i wont walk em through my past
They wouldnt like where i been
I'm askin god through everynight
Whens all the pain gonna end
Tattooed a 7 on my back wish i could see him again
Took L's an more came after that
Like God i need me a win
I aint never been scared of dyin
But damn this feel like a test
Signed my name right up at the top
Answered the rest incorrect
An i know i'm drinkin the most
Like how the f*ck i aint dead
This not a suicidal note these jus the thoughts in my head
I aint never been scared of dyin
Still i know that shits real
Hide them tears they wont see me cryin
Heartbreak that still hasnt healed
I aint never been scared of dyin these jus the things that i feel
Gun to my head you better kill me
Bitch i aint never gon kneel
Used to be gods devouted soilder like an angel i fell
If i make it up to them gates
My name aint ringin no bells
This world f*cked up im over tryin
Shit aint goin to well
I aint never been scared of dyin cause we already in hell
Somehow i jus cant kick the lean
I see codeine when i piss
How the f*ck they kill my lil brother
An im the one gets to live
Mom think i got ptsd from all the trauma an shit
You think you comin after me
You got one shot so dont miss
You got one shot if you miss it
Know we aint playin around
My team been really with the shits bro
Stand up we layin you down
An if you f*ckin with my trust hoe
I wont be stayin around
They know i made it out the mud though
We really came from the ground
I never understand the hate
I jus been chasin a dream
Some extra food up on these plates
I got a really small team
Look at what's happening around
Damn we jus really small beings
Hope i can turn some shit around see
Cause i gotta really tall dream
I ain't int scared of nobody leavin iss jus me an the crew
Now my heart is forever bleedin but this money still blue
An they had been tryna erase me
Out of the picture i drew
People fake as f*ck doesnt shake me
That jus aint nothin new
I ain't never been scared of dyin
I swear to God ive come close
People love when you makin money
Gone when you need em the most
I ain't never been scared of dyin
That hurt my mama the most
We alive an we f*ckin grindin
So raise yo glass for a toast
Used to be gods devouted soilder like an angel i fell
If i make it up to them gates
My name aint ringin no bells
This world f*cked up im over tryin
Shit aint goin to well
I aint never been scared of dyin cause we already in hell
Somehow i jus cant kick the lean
I see codeine when i piss
How the f*ck they kill my lil brother
An im the one gets to live
Mom think i got ptsd from all the trauma an shit
You think you comin after me
You got one shot so dont miss