Can't go sleep no I can't relax
I'm still thinking of the memories we had
Fights and the issues we were brutal we were bad
But a girl like you is different yeah I'm sorry I got mad
If I ever could I'd take all of my bad words back
I'd go and twist the past so you would end up with me
I swear baby girl I've loved you through all of my teens
And there's never a night when I don't see your ass in my dreams
Like the perfect world I wish I had but you didn't end up with me
That's how life works I guess you and I aren't meant to be
We were strong we were best love was shining like a light
But somehow the light had blinded out both of our sights
Lost focus and lost track I wish I could just make this right
From the bad times makes great men so imma stand and fight
I still love you and I dream about you every singe night
When I made you walk in rain just to ask you for your hand
I wanted to sway side to side I just wanted a dance
That came true when I was with you it came into my plan
Had you walk the town spot to spot and the last one was my hand
Now I'm an artist I can sing I want you to mess with my band
Came to me crying when you messed up and I got played by your hand
I sometimes still don't feel like Matt is the f*cking man
Kept on lying tell the truth bitch this the shit I cannot stand
I felt like we were public and people watching from the stands
I still remember that first time we sat together in the stands
Even then I had a feeling I know who would catch hands
I get it you left and we said we would be friends
Then I saw you walking with that kid I took offence
I got silenced by you actions now I'm all up in my head
I wish you were part of my life but girl you felt like a guest
Didn't get comfortable you didn't wanna stay
You had another man that you wanted more instead
I see your happy and I'm still hoping that he would just be dead
Can't go sleep no I can't relax
I'm still thinking of the memories we had
Had our fights and issues we were all brutal and were bad
But a girl like you is different yeah I'm sorry I got mad
If I ever could I'd take all my bad words that I said back
I'd twist the past so you end up with me
I swear baby girl I've loved you through my teens
And there's never a night when I don't see you in my dreams
It's like the perfect world I wish I had but you didn't end up with me
That's how life works I guess it was just not meant to be
We were strong we were our love was shining like a light
But somehow the light had blinded out your sight
Lost focus and lost track I wish I could just make this right
From the bad times makes great men so imma stand up and I'll fight
I still love you and I dream about you almost every singe night
So much thought and traffic in my brain I took the pen I had to write
If I didn't I'd be I'd be dead suicidal thoughts in sight
No one asking if I'm fine I'm all set I guess I'll drive
Tires burning on the pavement do the dash into the night
Always hoping that I do not die and that I'll come back home alive
It's a cruel cruel world baby girl just look outside
I've been waiting arms are open let's catch up sometime
This a sad sad song wrote right after I lost mine