20kBrokeland - under renovations Lyrics

I'm screaming get back
Before I go back
And get the gat
And feel blow back
On my wrists
How my life going
Stanza to stanza
Drip getting closer to Constanza

I lost my reflection due to exigent circumstance
A good friend lost his mother
I failed to take a stance
What type of man am I
The Spanish goodbye
I'm begged god to press pause
Now my growth is lost
Musta been lost, in translation
I speak from cracked foundations
This curse from generations
Ima temple under renovations
Will you temper my pain?
I got little to gain
In this world,
Cept the whole f*cking thang
I let my truth rang
I'm calling myself insane
Give me a rope to hang

I bear this pain like I'm Jeremy Allen White
You cant see my eyes, you know that's shame right
Pops had great expectations
I feel like pip getting fitted for the suit
I'm screaming in pain navy blue is the truth
I put myself through abuse
With this guilt
You could paint my skin white
And give me the most
I'm growing this beard
In delusions I'm Kratos
But motherf*cker
I'm going ghost
Either spartan or killer
I'm a character by Arthur Miller
In a better world I'm closer to Cole
So from here on out
My hair grow out
I care none bout
Ughhhh
Prices to pinch several pennies over
When I make promise, include the cost
It get loud like West Point commandant Cut the fake through the fondant
You gone get me
I stack the cards against ya
You gone need a worker with a strong auto to stop me
Shout out Shawn fain
There's no dame in distress when I'm rapping
From the logo to the bucket
I'm increasing my cut
Motherf*cker
Not hubris but disgust
To the friends I failed trust,
I'm ashamed
I mean to repent
Before my untimely death and descent