2003ub313 - Kill and Walk Away Lyrics

One carnal thought, slip of the tongue, or outright
Lie to hush my soul from letting me know that I'm overcome
Analyze and inspect the cause of all this selfishness, though never blaming self
This is my fault, all my own fault, not owning up to the unwelcome fact I've welcomed all along
I've lost my hold of all my control, not really lost at all, just given up everything I owned

So take this thought, take this deed or whatever it may be
Grab it by the neck and throw it down and drag it hastily
Into the center of the light within the center of my life
There's going to be a killing here - but it won't be me
Lying down, laying dead upon the ground
Oh no, I'll stand cause you enable me to stand
And you allow me to fall but then you pick me up again
And this is how I learn I'm nothing without you

This ain't right - it's not all right
It's gone too far for me to fix it
So once again you must remind me
It's never been within my reach
To right myself, to come off clean
So right my spirit and create a new heart in me
And it may take a long long while
But I'm waiting and still, I'm yielded and still

I told myself, we told ourselves
That it wouldn't end like this but now it's looking just like this
This is all I can take, grab the hammer - drive the stake
Into the heart of every piece of me that's pulling me down
This means murder, this means kill and walk away
This means freedom from myself and a longing for a change
This means murder - this is murder - the only way out past myself is liberating murder