Past tense trauma Video (MV)

I got emotional damage I think it's tearing me apart
Loneliness consumes me suffocating my heart, And I reach out for help but nobody's insight
And I'm trapped in darkness, longing for light aye, echoes of sadness echoing within
Aye wounds from the past where do I begin?
Trying to mend but the scars run deep, In this ocean of sorrow I silently weep
I've been fighting these battles with demons unseen on me
Can't go back in time, I don't wanna leave If I don't calm down it's gone be a lot of destruction
My brain is unstable I can't seem to function
Hey, I'll keep fighting I won't let them win
Though the pain is relentless, I'll rise again
Can I be your favorite? or a helping hand
I don't want you to be misguided can you understand?
Aye in the depths of despair, I lead astray
Your tears fall like raindrops, washing away
The pieces of hope that once used to stay
I've been drowning for so long you told me to wait
I've been drowning for five years
How the f*ck I'm posed to wake up, and make up for them years
I don't see your logic I don't understand you
You tell me all these things I believe but you fail to
Realize I'm the only one you got
Yeah, I might be wrong, but of course, I'm not
I call it ego we know
I let you fly like a eagle, you watch me like Peep holes
Echoes of sadness echoing within
I've been hurt from the past but I walk around with no fear
And that's why I'm still here I can't fold I won't change
They tryna bring me down, they throwing dirt on my name
Girl I gotta tell the truth if I don't you gon' take it far
I shoulda knew it, you done blew it, you done ran with my love
How the f*ck I'm gon' trust? Tell me where do I run?
They laughing at me right now, but I got the gun
And that's my soul screaming, you woke up the demon
I don't wanna witness you dying or bleeding
Don't wanna see leaving, just tell me what's yo reason?
I got emotional damage, I think it's tearing me apart
Loneliness consumes me, suffocating my heart
And I reach out for help, but nobody's insight
And I'm trapped in darkness, longing for light
Longing for light
I'm longing, I'm longing
I'm longing for light
You don't know how long I've been longing for light
I been tryna get it off my mind
Past tense trauma