i don't feel safe in my body Video (MV)

I don't feel safe in my body
It's always at civil war
My thoughts shoot daggers through my heart
I wonder what all this is for
Gone are the days I was smaller
But somehow I find ways to shrink
Into the palm of your sweaty hand
Holding me so I can't breathe

I never grew up, I crawled into my skin
I don't have a home now
Mine's been broken again and again and again

I don't feel safe in my body
It weaves in and out of control
I'm starting to crash, it all happened so fast
I'm becoming someone I don't know
Maybe I want to be softer
I miss when my cheeks were pink
Can I lay down? Is there a way out?
I've tried but the cycle repeats

I never grew up, I crawled into my skin
I don't have a home now
Mine's been broken again and again and again

Why does it feel so good to hurt?
As if I got what I deserved, oh
I would let my mind settle down
But I don't know how

I don't know how
I don't know how
I don't know how
I don't know how