Fractured - I Just Wanna Die Lyrics

Dear everybody
Life has been a little hard
Tryna figure out who I am
Never knowin' who I am
No one understands me
No one even wants to care for me
Maybe I'm not meant to be here
Always going left and right
I just need relief
I just wanna find some peace
Can this be a dream
Can I even wake up
Will they even remember me
Have they already forgotten me

I didn't mean for this to happen
Waking up at 3 A.M
Overwhelmed with all these thoughts into my head
Music is the way I'm livin'
But I feel like I am dying inside
Gotta get my hoodie that I wear only everyday
Barely feeling comfortable in my own skin
Walking to the hall
Tryna reach the bathroom
I keep on lookin' at the mirror
I don't like what I'm seein'
It is terrible
It is horrifying
It is devastating
There's a long list
But it'll never stop
So I'll cut it short
So I can reach the point
Before it's too late
Shut my eyes
Only for a moment
Now it's 6 A.M
And I just wanna go to bed
Now sitting my class
I only feel so empty now
Everybodies gotta partner up
No one is approachin' me

I just came home
My fam is always fightin'
People get mad
I am bullied left and right
I am always beaten down
And always bullied on the internet
Telling me I should've left already
Welcome to the next day
Sittin' at a table all alone
Tryna eat
Tryna get some peace
They think I'll never know
I'll keep it to myself
It's easier to lie than to give them honesty
But honestly I am giving in
I keep on fakin' it
But am I makin' it
I am just an outcast
Horrified like outlast
Always stickin' to the past
Only place I know best
Everybody keeps on stabbin' me
Like they even know me
I am also human
But you treat like me like I'm not
So am I human anymore
Was I human to begin with

I don't keep wanna keep on running
I don't wanna keep on dodging
I just wanna rest
I am a twisted kind of person
Maybe I want you to notice me and ask me if I am ok
But I push all of you away
Saying I am fine
What is wrong with me
It's like I wanna cry but I can't
I wanna punch the wall
Or maybe get a call
Someone sayin' I am here for you
My idol passed awhile back
Saying "you aren't gone til you're forgotten"
But I have never been remembered
So was I ever here
You may have never wanted me but I needed you
I loved you more than life
Everything i said is what I think about at night
I don't wanna do this
I don't wanna be this
I've been losing track of time
I don't mind it cause it always stays the same
I don't blame anyone but everyone is blaming me
Man I just wanna