Fractured - Berry Allen Lyrics

You aren't in my arms like you used to be
I don't know how to feel about this
When you were terrified
You would always run under my arm
Thinkin' about it
Why do I deserve this
After everything I've done
Never was planning on losing you
Your the closest thing I've had to happiness
Never knowin' what was coming next
I didn't plan for this to end
Waking up that day was something different
You weren't getting up
What was happening
Then I realized what had happened
Then my heart sank to the floor
I didn't say good night
Now i'm sleepin' without you in my bed
Man I never felt so lost before
You were only sick
Or at least that's what I kept on thinking
Too many tears to even think of countin'
I hope to wake up and let it be a dream

March 11th, 2020
Man I never felt so lonely
Now that I think about it
Life is really phony
I am wishing you can bark at least one more time
Just for me
But even if you do it
I won't have closure
I know that I sound selfish
But my feelings are real
And my heart is only aching
When you wanna come back
You can sleep right next to me
And try to tell me it's gonna be ok
I shouldn't even have you
You are too good for me
Hopefully doggy heaven treats you right
I wouldn't want anything but the best for you
This world is cold and nasty
So i'm really glad you came
When my loneliness was cavin' in
You were rushin' into my arms
I know that you're terrified
Nothing ever feels like it'll ever go right
Can you hold me tight and never let me go

Tears keep on fading away but they always come back
Is this reality
Cause if it is I don't want it anymore
You were sticking by me all the time
Maybe you knew what was comin'
Maybe you were tryna tell me but I couldn't hear you
Can I have forgiveness
I keep on tryna sleep
But I'm staying up even longer than the days before
My heart is really sore
I will never be 100 with what I'm writing
There is only so much I can say in a little bit of time
I'll be stuck here even after this is over
I will always reminisce
Back when we were happier
I can't talk to you
But
Hopefully we will have a convo when I get to you
I am wishin' you are here right now
Everybody has a smile
Even it's fake
But it's hard to hide the pain
I will let you rest
I was wanting you to hear this
Now you keep on runnin'
Barkin' out of nowhere
Being really loud
Don't let someone stop you
You will always be a good boy
Nothing will change my mind about it
I don't even have a doubt
I don't wanna see you pout
You and I will get through this together
We're in different worlds but it'll be ok
You made this life worth it
Thank you for the memories
See you when light is here
I love you Berry Allen