loser Video (MV)

I wanna lose these thoughts
Just for now so I can go outside and
Tell you that you're on my mind
That you are on my mind

I wanna lose these doubts
Just for now let me throw them out
I wanna live in the here and now
Live in the here and now

I prepare like you're watching
Without a single word ever said
Cause every time I get away with it
I get away with it (I get away with it)

Reinforcements figure me tripping
And stumbling and thinking -
That I am not the one that is in control
Over- this situation overpreparation

My participation:
Just watching and longing
And phrasing and waiting

I wanna lose these thoughts
Just for now so I can go outside and
Tell you that you're on my mind
That you are on my mind

I wanna lose these doubts
Just for now let me throw them out
I wanna live in the here and now
Live in the here and now

But what is this all about ?

Over this empty shell I call my home
Made of flesh and mostly shaking bones
Electrified blood flowing through my veins
Cortisol therapy above from my brain

Sinking down into the ground safe and sound
Like I was the only coffeinated coffin around
Was my biggest mistake watching only over myself
Living dead already like I'd live for someone else!

I wanna lose these thoughts
Just for now so I can go outside and
Tell you that you're on my mind
That you are on my mind

I wanna lose these doubts
Just for now let me throw them out
I wanna live in the here and now
Live in the here and now

Arrrghh!!!

I wanna lose this thoughts
Just for now so I can go outside and
Tell you that you're on my mind
That you are on my mind

I wanna lose these doubts
Just for now let me throw them out
I wanna know what you're all about
Know what you're all about

But as always I'm just fantasizing