Claire O'Shaughnessy - Always Gonna Be Alone Lyrics

If I loved you, you probably would've known
But don't be hard on yourself, I'm always gonna be alone
And if I told you what you wanted to hear
You'd have stayed put, and I'd still live in fear
And I don't know how my inflated ego
And self-fulfilling prophecy of doom can coexist
But they do, they do
I'm always gonna be alone
Even when I swear I love him
Even when he asks for nothing
And tries to drop me home
Always gonna be alone
Even when we're together
I'll always try to measure
How far to let him in
And not too close, not too close, not too close
And if I knew how to just let myself sink
For once not overthink
Then it might've been you
And all my friends say you're not good enough for me
But what the hell does that even mean?
I'm starting to think it's not true, it's not true
I'm always gonna be alone
Even when I find somebody
Who really thinks I'm funny
When I'm in my clothes
Always gonna be alone
Even when we can't stop laughing
And he helps me do my taxes
Says I'm never on my own
I'll be alone
It's not for lack of trying
It's hiding back of mind
Just when I think I'm coming home
I realize
I'm still, I'm still mmm
Always gonna be alone
Even when I watch him crying
I'm walking down the aisle and
I take him as my own
Even when I have his baby
Thank God for what he gave me
And pray they'll never know
I'll be alone
It's not for lack of trying
It's hiding back of mind
Just when I think I'm coming home
I realize
I'm still, I'm still mmm
Mmm