City Mouth - Shovel Lyrics

I could swim through your overactive tear ducts
And the rivers down your face
We were never close to nothing
I still shiver at your name
But the water is calming and the memory is fading
So I guess I should be smiling at the bottom of the sea
It's a balancing act, it's a dangerous thing
The way we treat our emotions so flippantly
It's infatuation to the hundredth degree
And I confuse it for love in my uncertainty
When I walk through that town, I can feel it for miles
This ever-present silence in the place of my heartbeat

Bloomington won't cry for me
But Chicago sleeps alone since last December
Will you remember me when it all goes south?
Cause this tired city has rubbed its eyes for the last damn time
For you and me
I'll find a better way to run my mouth
Cause this is the last song you'll get to say I wrote about you
I'm moving on, and God, I hope that's true

I was wrong when I told you that I loved you
I don't think this fell apart, but I think we built it broken
We were shattered from the start
And the songs that I've written are mixed with the wreckage
Just another grim reminder of the boy I used to be

Bloomington won't cry for me
But Chicago sleeps alone since last December
Will you remember me when it all goes south?
Cause this tired city has rubbed its eyes for the last damn time
For you and me
I'll find a better way to run my mouth
Cause this is the last song you'll get to say I wrote about you
I'm moving on, and God, I hope that's true

Dig me a hole and I'll bury you in it with all my memories
I've got a shovel
I'm just afraid of seeing them leave me
Knock me out cold and I won't say a word
Put me in your place
I will admit I deserve every bit of gravel on my face

Bloomington won't cry for me
But Chicago sleeps alone since last December
Will you remember me when it all goes south?
Cause this tired city has rubbed its eyes for the last damn time
For you and me
I'll find a better way to run my mouth
Cause this is the last song you'll get to say I wrote about you
I'm moving on, and I've given up on you