I can't honestly
Tell you what I'm doing here
I promised myself
I wouldn't make it through the year
Here I am again
The same routine every night
I'm not alone
And I'm not feeling right
I've got these voices
Running through my head
And they would like to tell me
They would rather me dead
They get so loud
That I can't think
And then I find myself
Back at a bathroom sink
I'm on the floor
I don't know if I can take much more
It's days like these
That I wish I had a way out
That mirror is haunting me
And the only thing that I see
Is a reflection of my own self doubt
My own self doubt
And now you're asking me
If I've been okay
I can't really
Seem to find the words to say
Maybe I need a friend
I need someone to stay
I need someone who can convince me
Not to run away
I'll say convince me because
I'll think you're lying
Why would someone as great as you
Ever bother trying
To save a mess like me
From myself
Hell I guess this is my way of crying out for help
I'm not ignoring you
That's something I could never do
But it's days like these that
I just need some space
You mean so much to me
I cant afford to lose you
I am trying everything for that not to be the case
Please don't let that be the case
And here I am
I'm reaching for my phone
I'll call you up and I'll see if you're home
I'll invite you over
You don't need to stay long
But I've been writing and I need you to hear this song
And I can't honestly
Tell you what I'm doing here
I promised myself
I wouldn't make it through the year
But here I am again
The same routine, every night
I am not alone
And I'm starting to feel alright
I'm starting to feel alright
You've helped me to feel alright