Alive - Upside Down Lyrics

I've been having trouble lately trying to find my happiness in this world
I've been having trouble lately trying to put all this into words
But lately, my insecurities have been eating me up inside
And I can't blame no one else (No, no)
But I just ain't been right
Expectations of my self that I'm just trying to meet every night I pour a little Jameson
And I roll me up some weed
So I can deal with this reality
That my life isn't the way I see it when I'm asleep
(Now, now)
Every time you come around (Round)
Your the only one to hold me down (Down down)
And every time I try to walk away (Way)
You always know just what to say (To say)
To bring me right back in
And I get lost in my mind once again and I know I haven't been myself
But I'll be here till the end and I
I've been upside down (Down)
I don't wanna be the right way round
I'll find paradise on the ground
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
I'll find paradise on the ground
How come every time I look at you
You never seem to look at me the same
How come every time something goes bad lately
I'm the one that you've gotta blame
Girl, please
Tell me, what it is you need
We are about to have a kid
How can either one of us leave
There are a lot of things that I know
And if we get rid of this child we will regret it down the road
And I've got to let you know you've got my support either way
I will be there for you all I can every day
Cause I just want to see you happy and to see you smile
And I will work hard every day so I can provide for this child
And I know I ain't been myself lately
But I will never leave my baby
I've got to let you know that baby I
I've been upside down (Down)
I don't wanna be the right way round
I'll find paradise on the ground
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
I'll find paradise on the ground
Every time I close my eyes now
I see our child
I see them laughing and running around
And us being so proud
Of the person they become
They'll be surrounded with so much love
And I'd let em know that every day I will never put no one above them
Expectations of myself as a father as a man
Having a kid at 23
Was never written in my plan
But, now it's happening
And it is way quicker than planned
And I'ma be a father now the most important one is them
I'm a star, but I will not spend it all
Cause I want my child to know I get this money for us all
I'm gonna do all that I can to provide for all of us
My biggest fear is letting y'all down so I will never give you up
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
I'll find paradise on the ground
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
I'll find paradise on the ground